reflection

...so the idea is to do things in moderation..
and yet, the idea of moderation threatens to fail most times
especially in those times, when faced with this huge insecurity
of loosing grip
of loosing ideas
of loosing any notion to live
yet,
for ideas need to fail
when there is no moderation within,
that failure is a gift,
the best thing that could happen to me,
and.. having said that,
it is also true, and it has not been easy to state this truth, that,
life can not be,
you can not alive, can not exist,
with no inner experience of moderation
for the challenge or the truth is to live
to live, this moment, this place with all its failures of every notion
the challenge, is to live without any ideas

for it is important to allow the baggage to be lighter
first realise that the baggage willingly will go heavier
so every effort, at least initially has to be deliberate
deliberately examine
what is it that I leave
what is it that I take
is there a possibility to take ownership
is there a possibility to go lighter
laugh heartily
not reject any part of this drama
at least not when it is very much there
acknowledge the child
acknowledge the immensity of the task
acknowledge the powerlessness to plan it out
acknowledge the effort
acknowledge that it is only up to you
acknowledge that it need matter only to you
acknowledge that it need matter only now
this moment ...
the experience of it
is your salvation
is your window
to eternity