on dullness and no escape

resisting succumbing
to this dullness
and feeling utterly scared hopeless
knowing that it lurks within
just round this moment
of utter delusion
that it is very easy
far too easy to grasp
in this far too thinking a moment!

i sit and fill it with meaningless words
grounding my mind with the heaviness of it all
yet the simplicity entices me
to take an honest look
"act" it says
yet I want it to be resolved in this moment
bicker and cry
hue and furore
nimble soul
plotting ends
rarely a glimpse
makes me live in
live on
live within
knowing..
knowing..
yet not helping
not helping at all